time flies when i'm watching tv

again i let months go by without posting and i have nothing to show for the absence. i was not employed and i was not dying. i simply forgot. but here i am, typing away, still unemployed. this has been one very long stretch and even though i have been busy with other things (friends getting married, birthday bar crawling, nyc visiting, condo buying [!]) i am beginning to lose my mind a little with the endless summer days. even i can only watch so many hours of sportscenter or hgtv. so i have said what i won't do (again) and will be working a few weeks out of town. i don't like to do this because i don't like leaving my husband or my new home but grown up life calls. my resume needs a little pick-me-up and buying a new home costs money. it's not good to let my skills get too rusty and this should only last a few weeks. at least this will give me a real excuse to not go to the gym.

money is evil

so even though i said i wouldn't do it again, i went right ahead and did it. reshoot #2 came along and i still had no job and after a bit of salary negotiation, i signed on for another bout of hell. yes, i like banging my head into walls. this one might have actually been worse than the last one but i was getting paid more so at least i had the mantra of "do it for the money." while i have since survived (and it took me a few weeks of recuperation before i could write about it because every time i would start thinking about it my mind would explode into a swirling mass of irate), i must say, money IS the root of all evil. it really does make me do things that i never would otherwise. like randomly sign up for psych/social experiments in college or once i donated blood to get free movie tickets (i was a regular donor anyway but that time in particular i did it for the tickets). it's hard to inference but i really do like my job regularly, just not when it's batshit crazy. maybe one day i can have real scruples but as an unemployed 28 11/12 year old woman who is contemplating future goals, scruples will have to wait. blah.