reunion weekend

so my 10-year high school reunion is coming up next weekend and i'm not even worried about the idea that i'm going to show up as an unemployee. while it's not ideal, i think with the current economic climate gives me a little bit of an excuse but also i'm pretty proud of the things i have accomplished. i went to a great undergrad, got a masters in fine arts (kinda useless i know but it was from columbia!), have done a variety of jobs and done them well and got married. my career is not where i imagined it to be, not that i can really imagine what career i should be having but i'm happy with where i am personally. when i'm not working, it's hard to always remember that there is more that defines us than just what earns us money. i have good friends, i eat amazing food and i have a supportive family. i like reading, baking, eating, cooking, shopping, doing random crafts, daydreaming, the phillies, etc. sure it would be cooler if i can say that i got that dream job at some high powered fortune 500 company and a corner condo in a high rise but that's not really my dream and while it's sometimes frustrating and depressing not to have all my ducks in a row, at least i like the ducks that i do have even if they don't all line up neatly.

baking season!

like any schizo unemployee, i have temporarily put aside my re-immersion into reading for baking! i love summer. i love it like nobody should love a sweaty humid soul-crushingly hot season. but i love it. in contrast, i HATE winter. cold weather destroys everything right in the world. but the one thing i do like about the chill that creeps into my being like the ghost of a serial killer, is that i love to bake and baking requires the type of weather that does not continue to melt the chocolate chips off my cookies. i don't bake fancy and i don't bake complicated. i like biscuits and cookies and some breads and cakes. i don't really like things that are too sweet but i do like the accomplishment of measuring everything out and mixing it all perfectly to then only pray that the oven doesn't decide to burn the crap out of my muffins tops. i like the mathematically calculability but the uncertainty that any mistake (or non-mistake) could make the whole pan implode into a brick. this makes the cold a little bit more bearable. especially since the oven also heats the house while it bakes.