waiting for a phone call

while i am nowhere near as anxious as i was this time last year, i am still pretty on edge every so often, especially when i get news that there might be jobs coming to town. while i am a freelancer, i am trained for and work in a fairly specific sector: entertainment. first, i am NOT an actor (if i was, i could pretty much kiss any possibility of paying back student loans good-bye). but i was trained to work in the theatrical field and have in recent years slowly moved into office-y jobs in film. as such, my livelihood is pretty dependent on living in a place where projects happen and as a current resident of philadelphia, this is not exactly the happeningest place for film, at least no where near the level of nearby new york. but every now and then we get a bone tossed our way and boy, do we find ways to claw ourselves onto the bandwagon. this leads to not just stressful unemployment but stressful attainment of employment. as projects move in, we're all throwing resumes in left and right and maybe under and over and then the most dreaded waiting game. WHEN WILL I GET THE CALL?! maybe today, maybe never. i'm constantly checking my email, checking my phone, tapping past colleagues for any signs. this is all terrible for my sanity and to help relieve this, i go to the gym whenever i get too antsy. while this isn't very helpful in getting me a job, at least i'm going to look good waiting. but seriously, CALL ME.